I would like to set a good example for other Christians to renounce Christianity.
A certain person asked me how I was able to detach myself from the manipulation of religion, since I was a Christian in the past. This is how I responded:
So I also consider it a miracle in a certain way that I got rid of religion – yes, the manipulation in a fanatical environment is strong. But I have always been different from other Christians (and that is also the reason why I got rid of Christianity) : I saw from the beginning, even though I was fanaticized myself (e.g. the violence in the Old Testament did not bother me), that religion did not give me anything. I really cannot understand how many fanatical Christians can endure being fanatics for 40 years and yet do not realize that religion does not give them anything. It is incredible how Christians can dishonestly deceive themselves when they pretend that religion gives them something. Christians are very dishonest people to themselves. And although I was a religious fanatic in the past, I have always been a strong personality and was able to have a different opinion on many religious dogmas than the church. The contradictory teaching about the Divine Trinity has never let me sleep. Christians make a big mistake when they uncritically accept all the teachings of the church (doctrines, dogmas) and do not even think about whether it has any basis in fact. And some Christians go so far as to become so fanatical that they are unable to admit even the slightest mistake in a church institution, even media scandals. A fanatical Christian will justify this by saying that "only evil people attack the holy church and make scandals against it". Some Christians truly fanatically believe that the Church is Holy and God's, and with all their willpower they try to ignore any negative information about the church. Personally, when I saw it in church, I had no problem honestly admitting that it was a mistake. Christians (especially fanatical ones) are very unethical people , because despite the manipulative nature of religion, they should have at least a little sense, they should be able to listen to other opinions about religion and not close their ears to every opinion that the church criticizes. Having respect for other opinions and especially having respect for the truth is the ethical duty of every person. But Christians have a big problem with this.
One of the most important factors why I renounced Christianity was when I discovered how the church, which used the word truth the most, deliberately and disgustingly deceived believers and manipulated the Bible, adapting the Bible to its dogmas in connection with the Divinity of Christ or the Gnostic esoteric elements of the Bible. This raised great doubts in me about the church. At that time, I definitely understood that the church is evil – because only an evil person deliberately lies. A few months after I renounced Christianity, I discovered videos by a shamanic scholar criticizing Christianity and that helped me a lot and encouraged me a lot that I am not the only one who considers the church to be evil and a tool of manipulation.